"We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars." - Oscar Wilde

I was told once in high school by a friend that I was a really negative person. I think on a sub-conscious level that really bothered me because over the years I know I've changed my outlook on life. I don't always have to try to be positive so much as it just happens. I try to find the silver lining to every storm cloud not just in my life but for my friends when they are having a hard time.

Life is far too short to spend it being negative or sad. Not to say that feeling that way on occasion is a bad thing. I mean, I'm a girl; I totally have those days where nothing goes right and I just want to curl up and go back to bed. But, life isn't about what goes wrong, it's about what you do to make it right.

Three months ago I was so unhappy with how I looked and felt and in a way I was okay with that feeling. I didn't care about what I ate, I didn't move, I didn't try to better myself at all.  My outlook was negative and it showed in how I thought about myself and my feelings towards other people. Who wants to be content wasting their twenties by being uncomfortable in their own skin and disliking everyone around them because of it?

December 1, 2010 I committed to a change. Some days it is really easy, I eat great and get in tons of fruits and vegetables and exercise and feel comfortable in my skin... I feel thinner and in power of myself. But, some days it is hard. Really hard. I don't like what they scale says, I want to gorge on chocolate, I feel like a working out failure and a running fraud and I absolutely hate how I look. But, those are the days when I have to remind myself that it's the process, the struggle, that is going to help me learn, succeed and better myself.

Because no matter what, I know I am getting healthier, stronger and smarter. Just sometimes, I have to remind myself over and over and over again. I'm not going to let being in the gutter keep me from admiring the stars.