My outsides look cool, my insides are blue
Every time I think I'm through it's because of you
I've tried different ways but it's all the same
At the end of the day I have myself to blame
I'm just trippin'


You can buy your hair if it won't grow
You can fix your nose if you say so
You can buy all the make up that M.A.C. can make
But if you can look inside you, find out who am I too
Be in a position to make me feel so damn unpretty
Yeah, I'll make you feel unpretty too

How is it music can always give me insight to how I truly feel. I mean, ignore the fact that "unpretty" is not actually a word and the fact that I think this song is actually directed to another person.

I don't think it would be a stretch to say that often people are their own worst enemies, especially for females. I don't know how many times I've looked in the mirror and zeroed in on everything I felt was wrong with my appearance, things that noone else can see. Every blemish, spot, crease, wrinkle; they all just jump out at me, screaming "Ugly".

Why do we do this to ourselves? Why do I do this to myself? I'm a smart, nice, young lady with great hair and a birthmark in my eye. I'm funny, patient, thoughtful, kind and other people think I'm beautiful. So, why is all I see in the mirror a body too big and a face too broken out? Why can't I see what Joseph sees? Or my family?

A big part of why I want to lose weight is so that I gain confidence in how I look, but I need to gain confidence in me or else I will always see what is wrong with me instead of what is right.

And because my thoughts towards myself are so ugly, it leads to ugly thoughts toward others. And, I'm not that person. I want to see the beauty in everyone, whether it is their laugh or their hair or the fact that they are the funniest person I know. I used to be a negative person and I've changed so much from that person and now I want to shine from the inside out. I want my thoughts about myself and others to be healthy just as I want my body to be healthy.
Losing weight is a constant work in progress but along with that, changing how I look at myself and others is a work in progress and one that I struggle with daily. So, instead of putting my own reflection down, I need to focus on the things I love. Instead of finding faults with others, I ned to look at why they are an amazing and special person.

And, perhaps remind other people that they are beautiful. Check it out: operationbeautiful.com

Why are you beautiful?