Reasons I'm Not Ready For Children: An Intro

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When I got married, March 21, 2009, it seemed everyone was chomping at the bit to let me know that I was either too young, or a wedding was a ridiculous waste of money. I don't understand what it is about forming a new union that give people the feeling that all of a sudden they can just butt in and offer their advice or flat out tell you that you are wrong.

Since then, I now get asked when I am going to have children and more often then not I am told "Oh, you're waiting? That's good, you are too young."

Age really has nothing to do with it and doesn't effect my decision. I don't think I am "too young" to have children, but  I can tell you I am not ready to and don't yet want to. I haven't learned enough of those important things that moms just seem to know naturally. So, look forward to a new blog series called, "Reasons I'm Not Ready For Children", because it is going to be fun.

Best Laid Plans

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So I had a dinner planned for tonight: Chicken, bell peppers and onions sauteed with Cilantro Lime Rice on the side. It was going to be delicious and nutritious (and taste just like chicken!) but then the sinus attack from hell hit.

It hurts to swallow.
My ears hurt when I DO swallow
It hurts to cough.
When I cough, green gunk comes up.
And I've had a wonderful sinus headache all day long.

Oh, and medicine isn't helping me at all.

There comes a point when I lose all optimism and just become pout. That point hit today. We got home and I couldn't find any warm pajama pants that fit. I was cold and I didn't feel well and all I really wanted was to crawl into pajamas. So my husband volunteered to go buy me some from Walmart (also helping him escape from cooking dinner which he had reluctantly agreed to do.) He offered to go to Taco Bell, but I was trying to be partially healthy so we compromised on Moe's.

I've been wrapped up in my slanket, with new fitting flannel pajama bottoms and sock slippers on my feet. I've swapped back and forth between Bones and Psych season 2 episodes. Needless to say even though I still have a headache, a sore throat, painful ears and coughing up green gunk, my day has finally started to look up.

December 2010 Writing Challenge

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The love of your life is getting married to someone else. In a last-ditch attempt to win the love of your life back, you bust into the wedding and profess your love mid-ceremony. Start your story with the line, "Don't say yes!"

“Don’t say yes,” I blurted out, bursting through the thick French doors at the back of the cathedral. I was out of breath from running across the packed parking lot and up the front steps and heads turned to look at me as I stood there gasping. Sometime during my run, the slit in my dress had ripped and my hair had fallen out of the ponytail I had thrown it up in.

“Don’t say yes,” I repeated more quietly as I tried to straighten my clothes and pat down my messy hair, quickly making my way up the aisle.

“What are you doing here?” Ryan asked confused, stepping down from the pulpit where he had been facing his bride.

“You can’t marry her.”

“Give me a minute,” he said to the pastor as he grabbed my arm and started leading me back down the aisle. “What are you doing here?” Ryan asked me one we had stepped out of the chapel.

“Why are you marrying her?” I asked, running a hand nervously through my hair.

“Why do you care?” Ryan shot back.

“Not even six months ago you were declaring your love for me, talking about marriage.”

“And then you broke up with me.”

I shook my head, “No, I didn’t. I told you I needed time.”

“Time away from me. How was I supposed to take that?”

“No,” I snapped, “No, I needed time.”

“Why? You wouldn’t even tell me why. All you said was you needed time, a break away from me, space.”

“Because I didn’t want to hurt you.”

“How would you have hurt me?”

“Your father came to me and told me if I didn’t leave you, he would disown you. He told me I would only disappoint and embarrass your family. He promised me that he would make your life a living hell and that you would never see your family again. How could I make you choose between me and your family?”

“How could you take away that choice?”

“You loved your father. Admired him. You thought he hung the moon. How could I do that to you?”

“Then why are you telling me now?”

“Because he died and if I don’t at least let you know that I’m totally and irrevocably in love with you before it’s too late, I would never forgive myself.”

“So you waited until my wedding day?”

I shrugged, not knowing what else to say besides the obvious “yeah”.

“What do you want me to do now?”

“I want you to do whatever you want to do, now that you know everything,” I replied. “I’m sorry I ruined your day.

I turned and hurried down the steps as tears overflowed my eyes. I wiped at my eyes as I made my way back to my car. I slid into the driver’s seat and stuck my keys in the ignition before a sob escaped my throat. I sat in my car, lost in my grief as sobs wracked my body, harder then they ever did after I broke up with Ryan. A small part of me had always hoped that we would somehow work out, but it was clear that wasn’t an option.

I jumped at a knock on my window and I rolled down the window confused, not really understanding what I was looking at. “What are you doing?”

“I can’t marry her.”

Christmas Wrap Up

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I had 4 glorious days off from work (+1 work from home) for Christmas, as well as actual SNOW on Christmas day. I live in Georgia, I have since I was 8 and I do not recall having a white Christmas the entire time I've lived here. It makes me super happy. :-)

For Christmas Eve dinner, I got together with my husband's family and had a potluck. I made Night Owl S'more treats, Bacon Wrapped Little Smokies, Mac and Cheese bites and Peanutbutter balls. The mac and cheese bites and the peanutbutter balls are old favorites. But, the s'more treats and little smokies were totally new to me. (42. Cook 30 new recipes, 2 done)

The s'more treats were amazing. They were so good and really gave a s'more flavor without the camp fire. They also look delicious.

The bacon wrapped little smokies were one of the most popular dishes there. They were the perfect finger food; one little bite of delicious.

I also hit a 5% weight loss, but I'm sure that is no longer the case after Christmas Eve and Day dinner.

I had a great Christmas with my husband and my family. I am truely lucky to ahve the family I have, they are amazing and I have a great time with them whenever I'm around them.

This is my second try at the 101 in 1001 challenge. I totally forgot about it the first time around so I want to start fresh, especially since in only a year, so much has changed with me.

I'm super excited for this project and the potential it has to help me grow as a person and to help me love myself more. I'm sure in the next few days I will quickly mark through some of the things on the list and it will slow down, but hopefully I won't forget about the whole thing.

Today, I completed number 73. I used to write an email to be sent to myself on September 18, 2013. I wrote about the things I hope I get from this project and what I hope to have going on in my life when that date rolls around. I hope that when I read it, I can smile, knowing that I tried my best to better myself.

Tomorrow I weigh in, and I'm hoping for a loss. I'm super nervous. Although I've stayed on goal, it is holiday season and who knows what I could have miscalculated. I just want to succeed and I'm nervous enough about Christmas eve and day without having a possible gain.