So today I made day 1 of week 1 of C25K my ho. I've tried this over and over again. Each time I've given up on the first day either because I couldn't push myself to do the whole time or I would literally be so out of shape and breath I couldn't continue.

I can almost see it

That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Today when I had two runs left, I almost gave up. I mean, I had done pretty well, gotten through most of it. So what if I didn't actually finish the whole day, I could try again later. Right?

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

And then, the cheesiest song came on, but it motivated me to keep going. It gave me new energy and I did it. I freaking did it. I was so proud of myself I wanted to cry. I've never done so well at exercising that I wanted to cry and I really think it was just me proving to myself that I could do it.

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

Something that I've slowly realized is that this is a slow, slow race to the end, but it is what I do to change now that will ensure success. The self confidence I am gaining in myself when it comes to saying no to temptation, choosing the healthier option and knowing when I deserve to treat myself is what will help me in the long run. Sure, there are ways to lose weight quickly but time and again they are proven ineffective for long term weightloss and I want long term weightloss. I want long term health. Mostly, I want to get to the point where not only does my body thrive on healthy food and working out, but I want to be that way.
So, here's to you, Miley Cyrus. You might make stupid decisions and come from the worst acted Disney show ever, but your song motivates me to keep going, even when I want to just throw in the towel. For that, I'm grateful.